Every Knee Shall Bend

Lately, I have been praying for a certain intercession very fervently.  I have come to the foot of the cross in all humility.  Although, I have found myself exceedingly restless in waiting for His answer.  My impatience leads to prayers of pleading.  Yet, in this unrest He has also showered upon me much grace (For example: I was going out to a meeting feeling very sad and so sorry for myself.  I thought I probably should not be going to this meeting.  I should probably turn around and go home.  I prayed to Our Blessed Mother, and told her I just needed a hug right now.  When I arrived at my meeting everyone gave me a hug even though this had not been a usual greeting at these meetings).

The other night, I was laying with my Annie-belle as she fell asleep.  She too was restless.  I had offered my little girls a story, but they had begun to fight over a toy and there was no way I could read over their fighting so I put them to bed.  Annie pleaded with me in a very annoying, whiny manner, to please read the story.  But, I simply could not.  It was just too noisy and already past bedtime.  There was nothing I could do.  I had to say, no.  

Then it hit me.  Perhaps sometimes this is how it is with God.  There is something that I perceive as a noble good and I ask for it from my Lord.  When the answer is, "No," I cannot understand why my Lord would not want to give me this good thing.  Why would a mother not want to read a bedtime story to a child.  But perhaps there is a very good reason God cannot give a blessing.  I wanted to read a story to the children but their behavior made it impossible.  God had wanted to give blessings or graces, but our behavior had made it impossible.  Or perhaps it just was not the right time.

I recognized then despite all my humble prayers I could not bend the will of God to my own.  As a child cannot bend the will of her mother.  This is certainly something I have known since I first learned the Lord's prayer, in which a line is, "Thy will be done." This is something I utter many times a day.  But, often when I say these words it is without connection to the true meaning.  What we pledge in "Thy will be done," is total surrender to His will.  In all my prayers, I had hoped God would do my will.  It took a little girl pleading for me to do her will to help me see that. 

My prayers do not change.  I still pray for the same intercession.  God wants us to come to Him as His children with all our worries, needs and cares.  But my intentions have changed some.  I know I must surrender to God's will and be at peace with it whatever it may be.  I must seek out His will in all my actions.  I must give thanks and praise and glory even when I cannot understand His wisdom. 

But, what if sometimes what happens brings suffering.  Does God want us to suffer?   It is a mystery.  I struggle with this.  Is it not a frightful thing to suffer?  It certainly seems many are sainted through suffering.  Mother Teresa said that when you are suffering it is the kiss of Jesus.  It means you have come very close to the cross so that Jesus may kiss you.  Remember Jesus is suffering for all the world's sins on the cross and when you come near you feel it.  But, being kissed by Jesus you are also filled with His grace and His love.  Oftentimes people who are suffering also feel very near God.

Right now, I do not know what is the will of the Lord.  I am still hoping for the best.  I think that is what is right.  BUT I am trying to bend myself humbly to the Lord, rather than asking Him to bend to me.  I am trying to not take each moment of each day for granted.  I am seeking out what is holy in all things.  Hopefully, He WILL answer my prayer with a blessing. 

A Costa Rican Wedding

My sister was married in Costa Rica a couple of weeks ago.  So we packed our bags and off to Costa Rica we went.  I will not wax philosophical on the merits of marriage, but rather simply share our the images of our adventure.

I will add we should have took pictures of the food, because we ate some of the finest food we have ever had in Costa Rica.

My Pineapple Baby

The beautiful bride

Pool Pals

Delicious breakfast that began everyday with a plate of fruita.

Cashew Fruit

On the bus to the river tour

Costa Rican Farmland

Iguana's Everywhere

It's a Croc!

Just minding his own business

It's a capuchin monkey! He's minding our business.

There's a monkey on the boat.

 Wedding Time

By 9:30 p.m. the children all tuckered out climbed up on 

the sofas at the edge of the dance floor and went to sleep.

Except for Alex

Mno Hiya Lyta!

St. Banjo

My son turned to me whilst completing his lessons today and asked, "Can someone be named Banjo?"

"Yes, a person can be named most anything. Do you know what a banjo is?"

"No."

"It's an instrument like a guitar.  It makes a cool sound."

"Well I think it's a good name.  Someday if and when I get a wife, I want to have a son and him Banjo."

"Oh that is interesting.  You know there is a famous Australian poet named Banjo Paterson.  He wrote   one of the most famous songs ever, 'Waltzing Matilda.'"

"Mom, is there a St. Banjo?"

"No."

"Can a person named Banjo become a saint?"

"There's a first for everything.  Anyone could become a saint."

"I want to have son and name him Banjo and raise him to be a good Christian so he can be the first St. Banjo."

"Amen, Little Man. That's a good goal."

Mno Hiya Lyta!